My True Love Story

There was a woman who was broken from years of sexual abuse.  She was insecure, filled with shame, and suffered from low self-esteem.  She looked to food for love, and hid behind the weight that began to pile on.  It was her way of protecting herself from more pain.

She looked for love in many ways, but none of those reached the deepest recesses of her heart.  She tried to fill that emptiness as she could, but they were only temporary fixes for the hole inside of her heart.

Through it all, however, she could feel the hand of God protecting her, guiding her to a better place in her life.  No matter how low she sank, God would always find her and pull her back up.  When she sank again, His hand was there reaching....pulling her back into the light.  Even when she tried to go in  directions that led her away from God, He passed her by and was waiting at the destination for her...protecting her from harm.  He brought people into her life in the middle of her direst circumstance to support her, love her, and help her to grow.

She saw doors open that she had never even knocked upon except for deep in her heart.  She saw circumstances that were painful turn into reasons for rejoicing.

She came to expect miracles in her life.

She began to wonder why God would waste his time on someone like her.  Perhaps, in the eyes of God, she WAS loveable...she WAS beautiful....she WAS worthy.  Tears streamed down her face at the realization that the hole in her heart had finally been filled.  Her search for love was over.  The love she had found was a love that was 100% unconditional.  She did not have to be perfect in order to have this love.  He loved her in her brokenness, and in that brokenness she found her healing.

This woman is me, and this is why I believe in God and His healing love and power.  I don't need scientific proof, for the proof is in my heart.  I may not always be able to answer the questions that skeptics have, but I KNOW.  I  know He is alive as surely as I know that I am alive.  Not only is He alive, He is Love.  People search for love in so many ways.  They go through life looking for anyone or anything to make them feel alive, worthy, and loved.  They turn to drugs, alcohol, video games, sex, shopping, food...all temporary fixes for a heart that is meant for so much more.

God is the answer to a hurting heart.  God is the Love you are looking for.

                                                           Cheryl A. Williams, 2013